This week wasn’t a good week. This week was full of ups and downs. Full of pain and burning. This week was one where I only opened my tracking journal once. This week was more about dealing with my physical pain than focusing on my eating habits. More about lounging around, napping and taking care of myself. Less about go, go, go and run, run, run. This week I learned that I need to slow down. I need to build up my immune system. I need to take care of myself. This week I gave myself permission not to track my food and focus instead on getting better.
It was a tough week. I didn’t work out once because when my blisters grew, I knew the worst thing I could do would be to aggravate them by sweating and pulling on them. Plus, for most of the week, it was a struggle just to walk without them burning or stinging so that was never even an option. I’m not someone who pushes through the pain and exercises anyway. It’s a struggle for me to get my butt to the gym on good days, so on bad days? Forget it. Not happening. I will say I miss exercising. I miss pumping those endorphins into my system and feeling amazed about what my body just did for me. And there were times I wondered how I would be able to survive if I had to wait weeks to exercise again. I never thought I had such a strong pull for exercising, but I guess I do!
As for my eating habits, the last thing I felt like doing was writing down every single thing I was eating. Sure, I was most definitely emotionally eating this week. But you know what? I don’t really care. It was an odd week. It wasn’t as if I had a test coming up and I was eating my emotions because of that. It wasn’t because I had a little cold, or had some rough days at work. No. I had shingles. Shingles! I’m still a little weirded out by the fact I got this virus, but I gave myself permission for the week off. I tried making healthier decisions but, for the most part, I took a chill pill from it all. Sometimes, you just have to have weeks when you emotionally eat. It’s not like I’m never going to do this again. I probably will. I’ll probably do it in the next few months. And sometimes, you just have to give yourself a break. Take a look at what’s causing you to emotionally eat and decide if it’s worth it or not. Sometimes, it is. At least in my world.
That’s not to say I’m not trying to kick this emotional eating habit. I totally am. And if this were a test, a rough day at work, or being delivered bad news – I wouldn’t give myself a break. But illness? I give myself a break when I’m ill. (And also, why does my appetite always increase when I’m sick? If I’m going to get shingles, at least suppress my appetite! Geesh!) Since I started the program close to two months ago, this is only the second time I’ve had a week like this. For me, this means I’m doing pretty good. (This used to happen every 2-3 weeks.)
All in all, not my finest week. But I have owned it and I’m looking forward to next week. On Tuesday, I woke up to discover my blisters looking tremendously better and feeling good. Yesterday was the first time since last Tuesday that I finally felt like myself again. The burning/stinging is minimal and nothing near what it was at the beginning of this. I’ve taken it super easy this past week and I think my body has calmed itself down. (Although I still think it was more of a low immune system and the stress I’m under just caused it all to come to a head.) I’m attempting to get into some light exercise today, so I’m looking for suggestions. I want something that’s not going to pull too much on the sides of my body, where my blisters are. A walk on the treadmill? The elliptical? What would you guys suggest?
Current Weight: 154.8 lbs
Net Difference: -4.4 lbs (+2.6 lbs this week)
BMI: 28.3 (+.3 this week)