1) Lately, I’ve been feeling embarrassed about my older car and wishing I had something new and flashier. I hate having these moments of embarrassment because it’s fine to have an older car. There’s nothing morally better about having a newer model, and my car drives just fine right now. And also, I just got it paid off and there’s no way in hell I want another car payment right now. But still, there’s the sense of embarrassment that my car is 13 years old and is nearing 125,000 miles and doesn’t have all the bells and whistles of newer cars. No Bluetooth or backup cameras or self-closing trunks. It’s old and slow. I’m trying to remind myself that a car is not a measure of financial stability. Those with newer cars aren’t better with their money than those with older cars. (In fact, it’s probably the opposite.) And this little old lady I’m driving is my first car, something I got on my own and paid off in full due to my own hard work. That’s something to be proud of.
2) I’ve been having a ton of anxiety when I’m driving on the highway. This is a problem since I have to drive on the highway to get to work. It usually appears right as I’m merging into traffic, which can often be a scary task for anyone with all of the cars flying by. And I know the anxiety is due to my recent highway snafus, with tire blowouts happening right during the morning rush hour. (The first tire blowout happened as I was merging, so there ya go.) I’ve never been a particularly fearful driver, which I know may seem crazy with how fearful I am about everything else in my life. It’s probably due to the defensive driving skills my dad taught me (hey, he was good for some things!) and I’m a pretty good driver as it is. So this highway anxiety is a new experience and I don’t like it at all. I’ve yet to have a straight-up panic attack, the kind where I have to pull over and calm myself down. But the signs are there – heavy breathing, racing heart, overheated body – and I have to take a lot of deep breaths and remind myself that I know what to do if something happens. I’ve done it twice already. I’m not really sure what more I can do to help myself through this anxiety, but I’d sure love for it to disappear any day now.
3) It looks like my days of wearing contacts are coming to an end. I had a feeling this was coming, due to my worsening astigmatism. I’ve had astigmatism for awhile now, probably since my early college days, and I used to have no issue with contacts. I wore toric lenses, which are specifically designed for those with astigmatism, and never had an issue. But over the past year, wearing contacts (especially at work) was growing more and more uncomfortable. The contact would move around in my eye and get stuck in a position that made my vision blurry. So I’d have to constantly put rewetting drops in my eyes and move the contact around to get my clear vision back. It’s really annoying, and I talked to my eye doctor about it at my last appointment and he agreed with my assessment that wearing contacts for everyday use is probably not the best thing anymore. For most people with astigmatism, the contact can move around a bit and they can still see fine. But when you have really bad astigmatism, one simple rotation and you suddenly can’t see at all, which is what I’ve been experiencing. So, I’m going to switch to wearing glasses most of the time (the main reason why I bought prescription sunglasses finally!) and getting daily contacts to use when I don’t want to wear glasses.
4) I’ve been thinking about the next place I want to travel to. I thought about planning another cruise for the spring of 2019, and I might still do that, but what I would really love to do is see the Grand Canyon. It’s one of those bucket list items for me, something I’ve always dreamed of. I think it’s time to make it happen for me next year. I haven’t spent a ton of time researching about taking a trip to the Grand Canyon, just did some digging about where to stay for a trip like this, but I think I might dive into the research and planning more deeply in the next few months. (And yes, I would like allllll of your recommendations because I don’t really know what I’m doing here.)
5) August 28th is the midterm primary for Florida, and for some reason, I requested a mail-in ballot for the first time ever. I don’t even know why because we have the option for early voting and voting on election day isn’t really that big of a deal for me. (I could always work from home that day.) But I got my ballot in the mail a few weeks ago and have let it sit on my counter since then. Realizing that election day is imminent, I finally opened it up only to discover I had waited too long to fill it out and would have to go to a physical location to drop it off. Still, it was nice to fill it out in the comfort of my home and take my time looking at each candidate and position and making an educated vote. And, since I’m dropping it off instead of mailing it in, I should still get an “I Voted” sticker and isn’t that the point of these elections? (Joking, of course.)
Where would you like to travel to next?