I made the decision on Thursday night. I was eating dinner, thinking back on this past week and all the good things I had been doing when it comes to my health and fitness. Harder workouts, healthier meals, less snacking on processed sugar, more water, etc.
I came up with a long list of victories that could all vanish in a second if I were to step on the scale and it reads back to me a number I don’t like.
So that’s when I decided.
I was going to throw away my scale.
I feel like I’ve tried everything when it comes to losing weight. I haven’t followed any fad diets or gone on any crazy juicing fasts, but I’ve been doing it the old-fashioned way for so long. Eating less, moving more. Counting calories and points. Cutting out sugar and soda. Boot camps and gym memberships and spin classes. Stepping on the scale almost weekly. Up and down, up and down.
Nothing seems to work. Or perhaps it’s more appropriate to say, I haven’t been consistent with anything.
Weight Watchers works – if you use the program correctly.
Calorie counting works – if you’re honest about what you’re eating and consistent with it.
Right now, I’m not counting anything. I’m not even cutting anything out indefinitely. I am trying to eat intuitively and follow a 70/30 diet. (70% of the time, I eat healthy and 30% of the time I splurge.) While I have added soda back into my life after my 30 day fast, I only have it one or two times a week. I have drastically reduced how many sweets I have – limiting myself to 3 pieces of dark chocolate a day. I am trying to eat out less, make more healthy meals at home, and choose wisely when I do go out to eat. I am exercising on a consistent basis and trying to make each and every workout count. I want to sweat, I want to push my limits, I want sore muscles.
I feel good.
I feel really, really good.
I don’t feel deprived. I feel proud of my accomplishments. I feel like this is a sustainable way for me to live for a long, long time. I feel motivated and less inclined to “cheat”. And while it’s entirely possible I could step on the scale and it could show me a magical number that would motivate me even more, I don’t want my motivation to lie in a number. I want my motivation to come from a desire to be healthy.
I want to stop depending on the scale to tell me if I have had a good week or a bad week.
I do plan on taking my measurements on a monthly basis, especially as I go through another round of Best Body Bootcamp. But I want to use other measurements to define how I am improving with my health: the way my jeans fit, lifting heavier weights, being able to do more than 10 burpees at a time, the way I feel when I look in the mirror.
The scale has been such a big part of my life – such a motivator and a deterrent for me – that it’s going to be hard to let it go and just motivate myself through other means. But I also think it’s going to help me to stop focusing on eating better and exercising just to lose weight and be skinny, but to do it because it makes me feel good.
Do you have a healthy or unhealthy relationship with the scale?