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The Cardboard Box Diet – Week 4

I skipped my update last week. Mainly because I was going to repeat all I said the week before and also because I gained again and just didn’t feel like posting about it. This week, I was determined to have a great one. Mainly, I was determined to track my food every single day. No excuses. The biggest cornerstone of Weight Watchers is tracking. When you don’t track, you lose sight of what you’re eating and how much. At least I do. I don’t feel in control.

This week, my only goal was to track. It didn’t matter if I went over my points every day (which I did, all but one day). It didn’t matter if I used up all my weekly extra and activity points. It didn’t matter if it was burdensome and annoying. Not tracking was inexcusable. I won’t succeed if I don’t track.

I tracked every day and it really kept me in line. It’s so much harder to cheat when you know you have to write it down! I had one of my best weeks thus far. Not because I ate super healthy — but because I tracked and felt in control and this whole experience felt easier. I’m realizing I don’t need to change every facet of my life right now. I need to make small changes. I think I’m stuck in 2007 when I lost almost all my weight and want to be there right now. But 2007 was 5 years ago. I am not that girl anymore. I need to take this journey slowly and build on my goals to be where I need to be to live a long healthy life.

It doesn’t matter how long it takes me. I’m not on a schedule or a 3-month plan to lose x amount of weight. I’m on a lifelong journey. And in life, I’m going to have good weeks and bad weeks. Pitfalls and plateaus. I have to stop comparing my journey to that of others.

And with that! Onto the questions for the week.

Weigh-In: Down 3.8 lbs this week, for a total of 5.6 lbs. Considering two of the four weeks I’ve been on the program I’ve gained, I’m pretty happy with this result! This was a good week for me and as long as I keep tracking and making better choices, I know I’ll succeed. I just have to remind myself I don’t have to get everything right all the time.

Exercise Completed:

Friday: 30 Day Shred – Level 2 (25 minutes)

Saturday: Stationary bike (30 minutes), elliptical (15 minutes)

Sunday: Rest

Monday: Rest

Tuesday: Ease Into 5K – Week 1, Day 1 (25 minutes)

Wednesday: Rest

Thursday: 30 Day Shred, Level 2 (25 minutes)

All in all, a pretty good week of exercise! I’m aiming to get 4-5 days in a week so I accomplished that goal this week. My new plans for exercise include 2 days of running (and I use that term very, very loosely), 2 days of strength training (mainly using the 30 Day Shred), and 1 or 2 days at the gym. It offers me enough variety so I’m not bored because I tend to get bored with exercise very easily!

Splurge/Guilty Pleasure: My biggest splurge this week was on Monday night when I had some cookie dough & two very delicious chocolate chip cookies after a very rough night. It was emotional eating at its finest but honestly? I truly don’t care. Sometimes, you just have to eat something comforting after a boy is mean to you. Am I right? (Also included in my splurges were Chipotle on Friday, French toast during Sunday brunch, and a huge sub on Sunday night. Wheeee!)

Successes: I tracked every day this week! My only goal was to track, no matter if I went completely over my weekly allotted extra points. (Which I did, but not by that much.) The thing about tracking is that it is, for me, the best way to help me feel in control. I feel so much better about myself and my eating when I am tracking and it keeps me in line. I’m much less apt to “cheat” if I know it has to be documented. I wasn’t worried about eating the perfect number of fruits and veggies every day or drinking 80 oz of water each day… I just wanted to get back in the habit of tracking. And this week, I crushed my goal. It feels awesome.

Other successes: getting a water cup at Chipotle instead of a soda (major win!), drinking water every day at work, and getting into a habit of foam rolling and stretching every night (it is SO painful to foam roll my quads that I know they are super tight and stiff. I literally moan the entire time and it sounds like I’m dying. Sexy, I know).

Recipe: None this week. I ate out all weekend (but ate all good things!) and then we made easy dinner meals. Lunch was Skinnytaste’s Mayo-Free Tuna Salad, which I’ve mentioned before. Still yummy, but totally not filling enough. I need to figure out a better option for lunch.

Weekly Goal: Instead of a weekly picture (in which I have to sort through the millions of “thinspiration” on Pinterest. So fun.), I want to set a weekly goal for myself. One goal towards my health. All my energy goes toward that one goal and this week, it remains my goal of tracking. Every. Single. Thing. I eat. Everything. For me, as time-consuming and annoying as it can be, it’s really the best thing that works for helping me stay in control. And I know I lose weight when I do track.

Categories: Healthy Living

The Cardboard Box Diet – Week 3

Oh, I don’t want to write about this week. I really don’t.

It was a bad week, from start to finish. I didn’t open my tracker once. I was half-hearted in exercising. My cravings hit me hard and fast. And my motivation waned. Already! It’s only my second week back on Weight Watchers. How am I already struggling to stay on plan?

I’ve taken a different approach this time around. I’m not making crazy plans for exercise or things I will never eat again. I’ve tried that before and it doesn’t work for me. It just makes the cravings hit harder, the excuses seem more plausible, and my downfall to be more imminent. But this weight-loss-living-a-healthier-lifestyle-thing is hard. It’s really hard. And while I don’t feel like you should completely resist every craving, I do think there’s a lot to be said when you resist the ones that are just your former life pulling you back rather than a true craving.

This was not my best week. Not by a long shot. But I know I’m going to have weeks like this. Everyone does. I need to take the mistakes from this week and grow from them, not repeat them.

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Weigh-In: Second week in and already a gain on the scale. Up 1 lb this week which is disappointing and disheartening. But all I can do is move on from here, recognize my mistakes, and strive to do better.

Exercise Completed:

Friday: I took a rest day since I woke up with horrible knee pain. No idea what brought it on but it was just a dull ache by the afternoon and completely gone by Saturday. Very weird!

Saturday: 30 Day Shred, Level 1 (25 minutes), stationary bike (30 minutes)

Sunday: Took another rest day, mainly due to laziness than anything else.

Monday: 30 Day Shred, Level 1 (25 minutes).

Tuesday: 30 Day Shred, Level 1 (25 minutes).

Wednesday: Rest day. Also due to laziness.

Thursday: 30 Day Shred, Level 2 (25 minutes).

I really want to get some other workouts in during the week, in addition to my 30 Day Shred challenge but it didn’t really happen this week. But the Shred is still kicking my butt and making me whine to Jillian, “But it’s so haaaaard!” so at least I’m getting that in.

Splurge/Guilty Pleasure: Ugh. Way too many. Peanut M&M’s on Friday, a fruity alcoholic beverage on Saturday, Chick-Fil-A on Saturday afternoon and Wednesday night… just to name a few splurges. Splurges are good, of course, but there comes a point where you have to resist the urge to indulge. It’s not always necessary and sometimes, much better for your state of mind to resist.

Successes: The only success I can see is that I tried to remain on plan as best I could this week. Even when I knew I screwed up this weigh-in, I still tried to get back on track with my eating.

Recipe: This week, I tried another Skinny Taste recipe. My mom and I have been in a food rut for a long time now, eating the same meals over and over again, so it’s been fun to actually get in the kitchen and try out some new dishes! I made Skinny Taste’s Skinny Sloppy Joe on Monday night and it was actually really good! It was a little too tomato-y for my tastes (probably because I put in the whole 8oz can of tomato paste instead of the 2 tablespoons that the recipe called for… Oops.) but it was still yummy. But since I put in too much tomato paste, it drove the points up to 6 instead of 3. I bought some rolls from the bakery that I toasted and served it open-faced.

The serving size is pretty big (it overflowed on my two buns) and it fills you up! It’s a good recipe, but I’m not sure we loved it enough to try it again.

Categories: Healthy Living

The Cardboard Box Diet – Week 2

It’s time for Week 2 of the Cardboard Box Diet updates!

I mentioned before that I’m doing Weight Watchers and it was really good to come back to the meetings. My Leader was happy to see me (she even gave me a new book and said this was a “fresh start”. I love her!) and the meeting itself was a good one. It wasn’t hard to get back into the swing of things and for the first time in 6 weeks, I felt in control again. It’s a really good feeling.

I have a lot to say with the questions so let’s get right into it, shall we?

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Weigh-In: I’m down 3.2 lbs this week! I’m majorly happy about that (duh), but I usually lose a good amount my first week back on WW. (Can you tell I’ve done this before?) When I’m following the plan, I usually lose about a pound a week so I don’t expect to lose 3 lbs every week – even on my best weeks. Still, it felt good to step on the scale and see such a dip. It gives me that much more motivation to keep at this!

Exercise Completed:

  • Friday: Stationary bike (30 minutes) and then a Pinterest strength workout (only made it through once, though. So tough!)
  • Saturday: Elliptical (30 minutes), treadmill on steep incline (15 minutes)
  • Sunday: 30 Day Shred, Level 1, attempt at a walk with Dutch but he collapsed on a shady spot in the grass 10 minutes in so we went straight home!
  • Monday: 30 Day Shred, Level 1, stationary bike (30 minutes)
  • Tuesday: Rest
  • Wednesday: 30 Day Shred, Level 1
  • Thursday: 30 Day Shred, Level 1

I decided to dedicate July to completing the “30 Day Shred” for the second time. Only I’m taking a rest day once a week so it’ll be more like the “26 Day Shred”. My first day was pure hell. I didn’t make it through any of the circuits without stopping multiple times and I think there was a part of me that forgot how hard this workout is. It may only be 20 minutes long but Jillian works you nonstop for those 20 minutes. I’m definitely seeing an increase in my endurance level, though, and I’m only really struggling with the strength sections as my arms tire out quickly. But this was a good week of exercise for me. I earned 17 activity points which I’m happy about.

Splurge/Guilty Pleasure: I tried to take it easy this week. My main focus was on tracking and staying on plan, which I did. Splurges were had, especially on Saturday when I ate 45 points (my limit is 26, although we do get weekly allotted extra points and earned activity points). Between a sub, four cookies, and a piece of pizza… it wasn’t the healthiest of days. But I had it and moved on. The rest of the week wasn’t anything like that.

Success Story: Staying on plan was relatively easy this week. Throwing a holiday in right before weigh-in was tough, but I fought through it. And when I went out to brunch on Sunday, I chose the healthy option of an egg-white omelet, fresh fruit, and whole wheat toast. It was yummy and filling and made me feel good about myself! All wins!

Recipe: I made two new recipes this week – yay! Both were from Skinny Taste. One was a mayo-less tuna salad that I doubled the recipe for to make a big bowl to divide up into lunches. It is seriously delish! It has a bitterness to it, thanks to the red wine vinegar and capers but it totally works to make the meal so good. My only complaint is that it isn’t filling enough so I’m not sure it’s something I would make again.

I also made her chicken taco chili on Sunday night, which my mom and I then had as leftovers on Monday and Tuesday. Again, delish! This one is making its way into my regular meal plan! (And yes, I am the girl who makes CHILI when it’s ninety degrees outside. Whatev’s.)

I would also mention to anyone doing Weight Watchers, if you use Skinny Taste for any meals, I strongly advise you to put all the ingredients in the recipe builder on eTools to make sure YOUR servings are coming out right. They weren’t for mine. (Her estimate was way, way more for my tuna salad but too low for the chili.)

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Categories: Healthy Living

The Cardboard Box Diet

I had a lot of fun on my cruise. A lot of fun. The entertainment, the excursions, the relaxation, the food, the drinks, all of it was exciting and thrilling.

Yet, throughout it all, was this niggling feeling in the back of my head. A voice that grew louder and louder every time I clicked on my camera and flipped through the photos I took. I deleted picture after picture of me. Any full-body shots were deleted. Shots where I looked like I had 5 chins and my arms were the size of tree trunks were trashed. I rarely put on my bathing suit, wanting to stay in bigger tops that hid my belly.

Sitting there on the deck of a monstrous cruise ship, lightly rocking as we sailed towards incredible destinations such as Jamaica and Key West and the Cayman Islands, all I could think about was how unhappy I was with my body. How unmotivated I had become to exercise, drink water, or eat a healthy diet. How my life began revolving around food. I was on a fantastic cruise, something I never dreamed I would have the opportunity to do, and because of the way I had let myself go, I couldn’t fully relax and enjoy it.

It was then I decided I could take two paths:

  • I could continue eating junk, half-heartedly exercising 2-3 times a week, and hating my body. This is the easier path. It requires no effort on my part to challenge my body with new forms of exercise, to stay away from tempting foods, and to completely change my way of living. I don’t have to worry about counting points, measuring out serving sizes, or forcing myself out of bed at 5AM for a workout. But on the flip side, it also means I’ll gain more and more weight, continue hating how I looked and thus hating myself, and soon enough, venture into the world of being plus size. That scares the effing crap out of me. That’s where my mother used to be and I don’t want that for my life. I don’t want to continue being unhappy. But then there’s always the second path…
  • I can stop making excuses and fully embrace living a healthy lifestyle. I can stop kidding around with my health and start eating more clean foods, fewer meats and sweets, and getting back into the mode of exercise I was in at the end of last year/beginning of this one. Pushing my body to its limits. Challenging myself. Cutting out soda, cutting down on my sugar intake, and eating more fruits and veggies. It’s here where I will see my weight come off, my energy levels increase, and my happiness levels rise. But this path is a hard path. It’s tough and while I have a ton of people cheering me on from this path, it’s going to be a battle.

Spoiler: I’m choosing the second path. Not only because I want to lose weight and be happy with the reflection that greets me in the mirror, but also because I need to be healthy. Choosing the first path may seem easier now, but it will slap me in the face with obesity and medical problems down the road. I have to stop playing around. I have to stop half-assing my attempts at losing weight and living a healthy lifestyle. I know it can be done. I know I can do it because I’ve done it before.

And nothing helps me better than accountability. Especially accountability on my blog. I have been debating whether to post updates on my healthy living goals or to just stay mum and do it on my own. But I know my chances of success are vastly greater when I share it, when I get advice and support and feedback. Remaining quiet about my struggles and goals helps no one, most especially me. I’m a writer and I am perfectly okay with sharing my struggles, being vulnerable, and asking for advice on my blog. So I am.

I am joining up with the gorgeous Lauren From Texas and sharing my health and fitness updates every Thursday on this blog. And if you have questions on weight lifting like What muscles are worked in the deadlift, make sure to click the link to learn more. She’s created a set of questions that I will be answering each week on my blog. The questions are the same each week and it’s mainly an update on my progress. If you’re so inclined to join us, she’ll be hosting the link-up on her blog. The questions are below:

Weigh-In: I will not be posting my weight here. I’ve done that enough and trust me, the scale wasn’t pretty to face this morning. But I did it. It’s a number I have never seen on the scale. And it’s time to see that number drop. I will say I am aiming to lose 45 pounds. It will be slow. It will not happen over the next 6 months. It took my mom over 2 years to lose 80 pounds, and I have a little more than half that to lose. But I can do this. Next week, you’ll get to find out whether I lost or gained weight, as I’ll only be posting how much I’ve gained or lost. Maybe I’ll even explore some weighing solutions at https://certifiedscale.com/scales-balances/floor-scales to track my progress more accurately.

Exercise Completed: Does zip-lining count? Climbing up and down all the stairs on the cruise ship? Putt-putt golfing in the rain? That’s been the extent of my exercise this week. Sigh. I’m planning for a much better update next week. In the meantime, staying hydrated can help keep your energy levels up, so consider trying Sqwincher’s Qwik Stik Zero from https://www.sqwincher.com/products/single-serve-qwik-stik-zero/ for a convenient and sugar-free hydration option.

Splurge/Guilty Pleasure: Hm. Two warm chocolate melting cakes, one apple pie, five six seven fruity drinks, enough pieces of chocolate to last me for the month of July… it’s been a week of splurges, to say the least. When you’re traveling or at work and don’t have access to nutritious meals, protein powder can be a convenient way to maintain your energy levels.

Success Story: I’m back at Weight Watchers. It’s been a while. And it’s good to be back.

Recipe(s): Considering I’ve been subsisting on cruise cuisine and fast food for the past few weeks… yeah. I can’t remember the last time I made a recipe.

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If you feel like joining us, hop on over to Lauren’s blog to link up. As a quick note, the term “cardboard box diet” comes from the idea of all of us who have that cardboard box in our closet of clothes that are too small to fit us. That cardboard box is fueling us to live a healthier lifestyle and find that girl who was thin and fit once again. It’s not a diet program. For more info on this, you can find out here.

Categories: Healthy Living

8 Weeks, No Sugar Challenge – Week 6

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This wasn’t a good week. In fact, there is little motivation to write about it and fill you all in on how I did because I did extremely poorly. It was probably my worst week yet and it pains me to say so.

Of course, it never crossed my mind that I was going to be attacked by a killer mosquito on Sunday night, end up with 11 bites on my legs and feet, and have allergic reactions to the majority of them. It caused me to have to skip all my workouts for the week, which sent me on a downward spiral of bad eating. I wouldn’t say I went absolutely crazy, but I definitely didn’t follow my eating plan and I definitely slipped back into bad habits.

I should also admit that I can be very hard on myself. I’m getting better at not beating myself up so much when I can’t do something or I make a silly mistake, but I am very tough on myself when I make poor eating decisions. And since I make poor eating decisions a lot, well, you can see I spend a good chunk of my time waging internal yelling matches at myself.

I’m not very nice to myself. I’m not going to write down some of the stuff I say to myself because, seriously, it would make you cringe. I would never, ever say those things to someone I love — yet it comes so naturally for me to do it to myself. Funny how that works.

The truth is, I tried to cut myself some slack. Sure, I goofed up this week. I let old bad habits define the new me. And I don’t like that. But I was also dealing with a lot. My allergic reactions to my bites took a lot out of me. I had to deal with the swelling, the tightness, the incessant itching, the pain, the fact that I couldn’t even walk in flip-flops without my bites hurting. It sounds funny to say that mosquito bites were what caused my downfall but it’s true. My body doesn’t react well to them and I had to spend the week trying to take care of myself.

On the same note, I have a tendency to fall into the trap of eating for comfort when I’m sad or sick or upset or when something really good happens. I don’t want to use food as a reward – or a coping mechanism – anymore. My body was doing so much better before, when I was eating for fuel, not for comfort. When I was eating foods that were filling and healthy and good for my body, not foods that were mainly junk and sugar. And I most definitely do not want to go through another sugar detox week.

I want to find other things to comfort me when I’m sad or sick or upset. Other things to use as a reward when I get good news. A hot bubble bath at the end of a long day. A night spent lounging in bed, reading a trashy romance novel. Retail therapy. A pedicure. Renting a movie. An afternoon at the beach. Anything but food. In the end, making bad food choices to comfort myself has the opposite effect: I feel worse. Not only does it not take the pain away, but it also leaves me with a guilty conscience and an internal yelling match in my brain.

I can only use this week as a learning experience. I don’t want to be the girl who comforts herself with food anymore. I need to instill different coping routines when the going gets tough that allow me to take a step back and regroup – but not fall off my healthy eating habits. I know there are dozens of ways I can help myself when I’m feeling down, including slowing down and giving myself time off exercise (which I did this week). Sometimes, that’s what your body needs to repair itself and rejuvenate.

So that’s that. I’m not making excuses. I’m telling it like it is. I had a bad week. And I gained a few pounds because of it. But I have five days until I’m a bridesmaid in my brother’s wedding. I have thirteen days until I leave on my cruise. That’s plenty of motivation to get back at it and refocus. I’m not going to lose the 16 lbs I wanted to lose through this journey, but if I can weigh less when I board the cruise ship than I did at the end of March, then that’s all I can ask of myself.

What are some non-food ways you comfort yourself after a bad day, or when you don’t feel well?