I don’t have much to say about June. These past 30 days have flown by without much happening. I’ve been working, applying to jobs, exercising, and trying to enjoy this season in my life. Scratch that. I haven’t been enjoying it. I’ve been worrying and stressing and wondering what’s wrong with me-ing. But what June has taught me is that all I can do is play the waiting game. Do what I can to improve my resume and cover letter writing skills. Seek out better places to apply (i.e., not only popular job search engines like Monster and Career Builder). Begin networking. But above all that, just trying to enjoy this time as I know soon my weeks will be filled with 40-hour work weeks, projects, challenges, and mind-numbing learning and training. (Although, to be honest, that sounds much better than what I do with my weeks now.)

One thing I’ve been learning in the past few months is that I’m not a child anymore. I know that seems like such a silly statement coming from a twenty-three-year-old, but I have a tendency to cling to the past and forget that I am an Adult and can do Adult Things. (Not, adult adult things. Well, I can do that but that’s not what I’m talking about. Ahem. Moving on.) I’ve started to take more action with my finances, with meal planning, with standing up for myself. This was most apparent when I had to confront someone at work. I said my piece, which terrified me, and the result was not pleasant. But it was a big moment for me. I’ve never been known as the girl you don’t mess with. I’m quiet and shy, keeping to myself. This was the opposite of who I’ve become and it’s exciting. I only hope I can continue to capture opportunities to stand up for myself and make my voice known.

Weight loss seemed to stall this month. May was a terrible month where I seemed to be in vacation mode the entire time. June was my month to get back on track. My mom and I started going to a new meeting, with our old leader. The meeting is farther away but we were a little fed up with our other meeting. The leader was also great, but the people were stuck on being perfect. The meeting we’re in now is so much better. The people there are real and struggle. It’s refreshing. That said, my weight loss wasn’t impressive but I’m determined to get on the right track. And really, that’s all that matters. I know I’m still going to struggle, have bad weeks and good weeks (bad months and good months), but all that really matters is that I get back on the horse and keep on truckin’.

I think one of the most exciting moments of June was when an impromptu #winetoreach was started on a Friday night and then the topic of Harry Potter was brought up. I mentioned I had never seen any of the movies and only read the first two books. Luckily, I wasn’t the only one but it caused a lot of shock and horror. And caused Erin to come up with the ridiculously awesome plan of reading through the entire Harry Potter series this summer. The plan is absolutely nuts but Erin has reminded me that these are children’s literature and fast reads. I trust her and I’m totally up for the challenge. (We’re also discussing the books on Thursday nights on Twitter, 10:00 p.m. EST.) So far, I’ve read through the first book and I’m halfway through the second. And guys? These books are good.

How did your June pan out?

How is it already May 30? I feel like I was just submitting my last school assignment and preparing for graduation.

May was an amazing month for me. One of the best I’ve ever had.

It started off with me sending off my last assignment, a take-home final exam, and then worrying myself silly that I would somehow fail a class. Although there was a mix-up regarding my final short story, it all worked out and my final grades were what I expected. (And I just received an official letter congratulating me on my diploma, but I still don’t think I will be fully relaxed until I have that diploma displayed on my wall.)

May was the month I went on my first interview, only to be sorely disappointed the job was for door-to-door sales. And as my job search has yielded no positive feedback, sometimes I let myself wonder if I should’ve tried harder to get that job. But I also know that it is a job I would’ve hated and I need to keep searching until I find a job that fits me better. I’m not idealistic in the sense that I have to find my dream job, but I’m also not going to accept a job doing something I don’t like.

Two big things happened in May: I graduated from college and went on a five-day Western Caribbean cruise.

My graduation was amazing. Simply fantastic. It was a culmination of 7 years of hard work and lots of stress. I went through a lot to obtain my degree, including being oh so close to graduating with my education degree. I think I made the right decision in switching, even though it probably threw a lot of people for a loop. It was exciting to be surrounded by the people I had seen throughout my 2.5 years as a journalism major because they all get it. There are times when I just think, I don’t have to be a student ever again if I don’t want to. But mostly, I think, hm, graduate school? Maybe someday.

And then there’s my cruise. It was one of the best experiences of my life and it’s all I can do not to click back onto the Carnival site to find another cruise. I’m officially a fan and I will find myself on another ship before 2011 is over. I have so many pictures to show you guys and so many stories to tell you about. From kissing sting rays in the Cayman Islands, touring Mayan ruins in Cozumel, and waking up each morning to an amazing view of the ocean, I’m very sad my vacation is over. (And so not excited to go back to work tomorrow after a lovely 10 days off!)

I’m not sure how June will ever live up to May. Perhaps if I’m offered a job?

How was your May? What stood out for you?