Happy Monday! I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend. Mine was rather low-key, but I managed to sneak in two long naps, two long workouts, Scandal bingeing, and lots of cleaning and organizing. Let’s kick off the work week with a fun currently post to see what I’ve been up to, eh?

Feeling…  sore! I pushed myself hard in my workouts this weekend, getting in both cardio and strength workouts. I made up two different circuits, one for the lower body and one for the upper body, so I could do them on back-to-back days without working the same muscle groups. Between all the squats, lunges, burpees, mountain climbers, shoulder presses, tricep kickbacks, push-ups, and bicep curls… I am hobbling around like an old lady. Walking is hard, sitting down is hard, opening a door is hard, rolling over in bed is hard, using a mouse is hard. But it feels oh so good. I love strength training SO much!

Reading… The Husband’s Secret by Liane Moriarty for book club. I hadn’t heard about this book at all until one of my friends brought it up as a suggestion during our January book club meeting. And then I started hearing about it everywhere! Isn’t it funny when that happens? I’m only about 150 pages in, so I don’t have an opinion yet, but I do love the author’s writing style. Very personable!

Watching… the latest Scandal episodes! This weekend, I got completely caught up on season three and whoa, it’s a crazy one. There’s so much drama! And intrigue! And I never know what’s going to happen next! I am hooked, you guys. (The best part, though, has been texting with Amber since we’re both catching up on the show and having someone to go to with “WTF was up with THAT episode?!” Ha.)

Anticipating… MY NEXT CRUISE! It may seem like this was a spur-of-the-moment decision, but I’ve been canvassing the Carnival site for months now looking at cruises. My mom and I decided on a 5-day cruise that leaves in early May. It will travel to Key West and to two stops in the Bahamas, Freeport and Nassau. I am just. so. excited. I really, really needed something fun and exciting to look forward to. We probably won’t go too crazy with excursions like we normally do (and there’s really not a ton of interesting Bahamas excursions, to be honest), but five days of sun, relaxation, and getting away with my favorite person? The best.

Listening to… Can’t stop, won’t stop with this song by one of my favorites, Christina Perri. I am so excited about her upcoming album.

Planning… to start my first (paid!) freelance writing gig very soon. An opportunity came up this past week and it was the perfect timing for me.  Perhaps I can finally get that freelancing side hustle going this year like I keep saying I’m going to do?

Wishing… for my tax refund to be deposited! I’m hoping it will come sometime this week so I can get those darn credit cards paid off. I know I will feel so much better once that happens. Plus, I’m putting some of my debt goals on hold for the rest of February/March to pay for my cruise (I know – I will never be the poster child for personal finance, but whatever, I need this cruise for my mental sanity.) so that will help me to feel a little less of a slacker.

Thinking…  a lot about healthy living. I’m writing a post about this for Wednesday, but I feel like I always start off the year super motivated and energized and then it all feels overwhelming and eating healthy day in and day out seems so dang hard. And that’s when I lose it and just give up. But I am committed to my health and to losing weight, and I know I cannot give up, even when every day, hour, and minute feels like a challenge against myself. My health is too important! When it’s difficult, that’s when I have to dig in and find someplace inside me to keep fighting. One quote I keep coming back to is one that Nicole of Life Less Bullshit said in her goal-setting workbook: big, sexy change happens one unsexy step at a time. I’m in those unsexy, annoying, hard steps but that just means my big, sexy change is on its way.

Loving… lazy weekends, sunny days, Dr. Pepper, after-work bubble baths, vacation anticipation, getting organized, Project 365, and the sweetness of a silly crush.

How was your weekend? What are you currently reading and/or anticipating?

Reading: The Aviator’s Wife by Melanie Benjamin. I’m only about 100 pages in, but I love it so far!

Loving: That my brunch date on Saturday brought me a flower. It was so unexpected and so sweet! I highly approve and he earned a bajillion bonus points from me. Dating can be really disheartening at times, but not all the time. 🙂

Thinking: About the NFL championship games this weekend! Oh, I am the most nervous! If you must know something about me, it’s that I am the biggest fan ever of Peyton Manning. (Um, I cried when he won the Superbowl. Yes. Cried.) And, honestly, he needs a second ring so his critics can stop talking smack. And! San Francisco, of which my brother is a diehard fan, is also playing in the other game. So, basically, I’m going to be a nervous wreck for all of Sunday.

Feeling: Content, restful, happy, present. January always feels like such a calm month, after the busyness of the holiday season. I am really enjoying 2014 so far. Hoping it is a year of big changes, but also love and happiness.

Anticipating: Starting Best Body Bootcamp on Monday! This will be my third time doing Tina’s program and I am really looking forward to it. She really puts together the best workouts and I can’t wait for that “toilet sore” feeling! My workouts have been very lackluster lately, and I know I can count on BBB to shake things up.

Inspired by: A ton of personal finance bloggers. Gina was kind enough to forward links to some really great personal finance bloggers who are in the same boat as me – paying off debt – and it’s been really inspirational reading their stories. My favorites are Blonde On a Budget and Girl Meets Debt.

Watching: Scandal! I am so addicted, you guys. It’s not even funny. I love this series and these characters and I just want them all to be okay and in love and happy.

Sad: When I think about the pain and tragedy and heartache some of my faraway friends are dealing with. It tears me apart thinking about what these wonderful, amazing, incredible girls are going through. It’s SO not fair and I can’t stop thinking about them and wishing I could somehow take their pain away. It just sucks, you know? I feel so helpless. My heart is very heavy.

Working: On my budget, all the time! I’m using a spreadsheet I adapted from Blonde on a Budget and I’m basically obsessed with it.

Grateful: For awesome coworkers, half-day Fridays, and the knowledge that there is a long afternoon nap on my agenda for today. Have I mentioned how much I love my job?

Listening: To Lorde’s album on repeat. I bought it a few months ago and I still can’t pick a favorite song. So good!

Wishing: That I had a fancy cruise on the horizon. Originally, my mom and I were planning on taking a 7-day cruise in May, but we never got around to booking it and a part of me is glad because I know I can’t really afford it. I’m crossing my fingers, though, that my tax return is sweet enough to allow me to take a 4-day Bahamas cruise sometime in May. I want to use the majority of my tax return to pay off my credit cards but also may use some of it to put towards a short vacation in the summer. (And since Carnival is showing rates for Bahamas cruises for under $350, I think I can manage it!)

What are you currently reading? Anticipating? Inspired by? Wishing for?

Prompt inspired by Caroline

Feeling… excited about leaving on my cruise on Friday. I am not sure I am going to survive the next four days at work! The best part is that I’m going with four girls I completely love and adore, and who totally get me. It’s so crazy because thinking about my life last year and how lacking it was in local girl friendships and now I’m going on vacation with girlfriends! The ship doesn’t stop anywhere, just does a little loop in the Gulf of Mexico, but it’s going to be a really fun weekend. Hurry up, Friday!

Writing… a love story. The story I’m writing for #NaNoWriMo is a contemporary love story, one of those feel-good romances that are slightly predictable but still really cute. At least that’s my goal! It’s a fun thing, writing a romance, and I’m enjoying the process. (Even those days when I’m all, WHAT AM I DOING. I CAN’T WRITE STORIES. I SUCK AT EVERYTHING. GAH. I hear this is quite normal.)

Reading… Lucia, Lucia by Adriana Trigiani. It was Nora who first clued me in to this author and I’m so glad she did. I’ve read two books by her and both were amazing. She’s such a beautifully descriptive writer.

Listening… to football right now! We have a full house for the game. Well, sort of. My brother came over for the games, and my mom and her boyfriend are also hanging out. As I write this post, the Denver/San Diego game is on and since I love everything Peyton Manning, I’m a happy camper.

Eating… a delicious brownie! My mom made them for our little get-together and they are the best little treat! (I may have brought one to work today for an afternoon pick-me-up.)

Wishing… I could take the whole week of Christmas off. We get Christmas Eve and Christmas Day off, and I was really hoping I could take the Monday before and then the Thursday and Friday after, but I won’t have enough PTO for that. I could take off the Thursday and Friday off, but I would wipe out my PTO so I’m debating if it’s worth it. I don’t have any major plans, but it would just be a really nice break from work.

Enjoying… new responsibilities at work! Starting this month, I’ll be writing for six different clients, which equals to a little over 50 pages a month. (The pages are around 250-350 words, to give an idea of what that entails.) I’m also going to be helping out with a big editing project for our biggest client, which will be an interesting challenge!

Drinking… Dr. Pepper. Because it’s good. And bad for me. But still good.

Learning… That it’s okay to have “moments,” even as an adult. Sometimes, you just have to have a whiny, pity party for yourself. And then you give yourself a reality check and realize you’re being silly and immature. But moments happen. It’s okay.

Thinking… about going soda-free in December. I started off this year with a 30-day soda fast and I think it would be a good idea to end it doing the same thing. I’m no longer addicted to soda and I do fine without it, but I still drink it way too often.

Loving… game nights with friends, keeping in touch with my old coworkers, coffee, my job, Reese’s eggs, finishing great books, and watching dachshunds race against one another.

What’s one lesson you’ve learned recently?

Feeling: Content and happy. I’ve been feeling really good about where I am and where I want to go lately. While not everything in my life is where I want it (see: weight issues and my lackluster dating life), I can’t help but love this place I am right now. That said, being a generally anxious person means I’m constantly on my guard and waiting for the next shoe to drop. It’s so hard to be happy when you live with anxiety because you’re always waiting for something bad to happen. I am trying my best to live in this moment and just be happy for the sake of being happy. It’s a work in progress.

Reading: Looking for Alaska by John Green. I’ve read two of his books: The Fault in Our Stars, which I absolutely loved, and Paper Towns, which I did not love. It’s a little slow right now but I’m only about 50 pages in so I’m hoping it picks up soon.

Watching: Big Brother and tonight is finale night! I know I’m not in the minority when I say this season has been pretty horrible. The contestants have been really boring and nobody really played the game the way it is meant to be played. (Not to mention all the racist and homophobic things that were said at the beginning of the game. Though I think Aaryn is truly remorseful and I really believe she learned a big life lesson from this show.) I really do not care for anybody in the final three but if I had to choose someone to win, it would be Gina-Marie. She made some big moves, at least, and that’s way more than we can say for Spencer or Andy. At the very least, I am looking forward to good ole Dr. Will coming back to grill the houseguests. Should be interesting!

Anticipating: Ordering my iPhone 5S on Friday! I have been eligible for a phone upgrade since early summer, but I haven’t been in the right financial place to justify spending $200 on a phone when my old one works perfectly fine. But since my 2-year contract expires soon, I know I need to bite the bullet and get a new phone. Plus, I’m still rocking the iPhone 4 so this will be a huge upgrade for me. I can’t wait!

Wishing: To go on a really good date. As I mentioned above, my dating life has been so lackluster. OK Cupid has left me feeling more and more disenchanted. (The last guy who messaged me on there asked me how I felt about casual sex. Lovely. Just lovely.) I’m not unhappy being single, exactly, because in some ways it’s really great but I just miss that special feeling of going on dates and getting to know someone and being with them. And the last date I went on was so dull, I’m at this place when I’m wondering when it will ever happen for me. If ever.

Thinking: About birthday plans! My birthday is on Thanksgiving this year, which I’m excited about. I plan on participating in the Turkey Trot 5K, eating a delicious dinner, and celebrating with my family.  But I’m also aching to do something more than that, because I always love celebrating my birthday in a fun way. My heart is nudging me towards a long weekend in Orlando and visiting Islands of Adventure and Universal Studios (I haven’t visited either park in over 3 years) because weekends in Orlando are just my absolute favorite. They also aren’t cheap. If I don’t end up going to Orlando, I’m thinking about a night out at a real fancy dinner spot (just not sure where yet!) and then a tattoo appointment for the tattoo that’s been on my mind for over a year now. Decisions, decisions!

Loving: Lazy Friday afternoons, pool time, cooler mornings, football being back and the Dolphins actually playing really well, running again, the Christina Perri Pandora station, winning the football pool at work, and it being fall premiere season.

What are you most excited about right now? 

Feeling: A bit hermit-y lately. I haven’t been going out much and my weekends remain low-key, where even going to church seems like a hassle. It’s hard to have these really fun and exciting weekends when you’re trying to eat healthily and not spend money. So I’ve been keeping to myself lately and not getting out as much as I should be. I don’t mind my hermit-y ways, because it’s allowing me to get a lot of writing done. (I’m over 3,000 words into a new novel!) But, at the same time, I know how good socializing is for me so I need to make more of an effort when I can.

Reading: Bird By Bird by Anne Lamott. I’m not too familiar with her work, but I’ve heard so many great things about this book that I had to give it a try. I’m only about 70 or so pages in, but I am really, really enjoying it. It’s witty, yet filled with so many good tips and advice for writers. I did have a bit of a giggle, though, when I read “You put a piece of paper in the typewriter…” in one of the beginning chapters. (That was when I found out the book was written in 1994! OK then.)

Listening to: The Paris Wife via audiobook on my commute to and from work, which I should be able to finish up this week. (Only 2 CDs left!) I can’t say that I am loving this novel (I’m just so annoyed by Ernest and Hadley!) but I do think the writing is lovely. The reader of the audiobook is not my favorite and can be distracting, but overall, it’s been a good read. (Err… listen?)

Watching: It’s July so Big Brother, of course! My obsession level with this show is unparalleled. I’ve yet to find a show that gets me so consumed. My favorites this season are most definitely Candice and Amanda. And I think Aaryn should have been kicked out of the house by the producers a long time ago… her behavior is so disgusting and awful. Other shows currently obsessed with: So You Think You Can Dance (Fik-Shun & Amy are the cutest couple of all time), Whodunnit (I think Cris is the killer), and MasterChef (rooting for Bri!).

Anticipating: A media fast in August. Last year, I spent a month away from all things social media and blogging after going through a particularly difficult time I wanted to keep private. It was one of the best decisions I made to help me heal and really helped me to focus and get back on the right path. And while I’m not going through any difficulties right now, I am planning on doing another month-long media fast in August. Honestly, I can’t wait!

Wishing: I could travel more. Why is traveling so expensive? Now that I’m getting super strict about my spending habits and budget and paying off debts, it’s looking less and less likely that any sort of travel will happen this year. I wanted to go away for my birthday, but I know I have to make the smart decision to stay home and keep socking away at those debts. I just keep reminding myself that this is a season. It’s not forever and it’s not the worst thing in the world. Repeat, repeat, repeat.

Learning: That I don’t mind cooking as much as I previously thought. Don’t get me wrong, I will always love getting take-out over getting into the kitchen to cook a meal after a long day of work, but it’s not as bad as I say it is. I don’t find cooking relaxing, but there is a measure of pride when I can take a recipe from a website and create the meal in my kitchen. And since I only make healthy recipes (if I’m going to cook, it might as well be healthy, right?), it always feels good to sit down at the table and eat something good for me and that I spent time and effort to make.

Thinking: About getting my first tattoo. About dyeing my hair back to brown. About cutting my bangs. About how lonely living alone would be. About my career. About how dating is nothing like a romance novel. About why I seem to get 2-3 mosquito bites every time I walk Dutch.

Loving: Pool days and beach days, my coworkers, daily gchats with Nora, using the library more frequently, writing fiction again, sleeping better, watermelon, green smoothies, and Skype dates with faraway friends.