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Why Do You Read?

I read for the escape, to pause my own life for a moment and escape into an entirely new world. Maybe it’s a love story and dropping myself into a budding relationship. Maybe it’s a self-help book that allows me to see the bigger picture of the Universe. Maybe it’s a fast-paced thriller where I can spend some time trying to solve a case and less time trying to solve my own problems.

I read to be educated. Fiction and nonfiction alike allow me to see the world through a different lens. Americanah opened my eyes to the cultural differences between African-Americans and Africans who immigrate to the United States. MWF Seeking BFF made me realize that making friends as an adult is hard for nearly everyone, and it gave me practical steps to make friends. A Thousand Splendid Suns taught me what life is like for women in other countries where their voices are oppressed. The Willpower Instinct helped me understand my brain and how it reacts to willpower and self-control in a super easy-to-understand way.

I read to be moved, to be taken to a place outside of myself and my own little bubble. Two Kisses for Maddy had me sobbing as Matt Logelin told me in the most honest and raw way possible about the death of his wife. Firefly Lane gave me unexpected tears and hiccuping sobs when the book took an unexpected turn that nearly destroyed me. Me Before You broke me, taking me into a world full of pain and heartache and strife, but showing me how goodness and sweetness and heart can commingle with it.

I read to calm my anxiety. It’s easy to tell when I’m feeling anxious and restless because all I’m reading are romance novels. Whenever I’m feeling out of sorts, I can always depend on a sweet, light-hearted romance novel to lift my spirits.

I read for an experience, to be taken on a journey so far outside my realm of understanding. The Martian allowed me to explore life on Mars. To Kill a Mockingbird brought me to a small Southern town to learn about racism. The Night Circus took me to a secret, vivid world of magic and storytelling and fantasy. And, who can leave the Harry Potter series out of this? A series unlike anything I’ve ever read, an experience unlike I’ve ever known.

I read for enjoyment, because reading is, hands down, my absolute favorite hobby and my favorite way to waste time. I read to lose all sense of time and place, to dive so completely into a book that all other demands and needs disappear for a while.

I read because it connects me to a younger me, the girl who would go to the library every Saturday and check out 12 books (the limit for the children’s section) and read them all within a week. The girl who didn’t care if her parents grounded her from playing with friends or watching TV, but would throw an all-out hissy fit if they took away her books. I read for that girl who loved nothing more than getting lost in her stories, who loved these fictional worlds more than the real world.

I read because it’s a part of my identity. I am a reader, a bookworm, a bibliophile. I am the girl that people come to for book recommendations, and I can usually find something perfect for that person and their needs. I make the time for reading because it fulfills me and makes me happy. I read because I don’t understand people who don’t read. I read because I love it.

Why do you read?

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11 Questions

Earlier this week, San nominated me for the Liebster Award and I loved the questions she posed, so I wanted to take the time to give my answers. (Side note: remember when blog awards were super popular, back in the “glory days” of blogging? Getting nominated for them always brightened my day! So fun that some of these awards are still floating around the blogosphere.)

But I’m going to break the rules a little here and only answer the questions San asked. I’m supposed to ask 11 questions of my own and nominate other bloggers, but it’s okay to break the rules sometimes, right? 😉

1. What is your favorite beauty product?

I have really light blonde eyebrows that basically disappear on my face, so once I discovered NYX’s eyebrow pencil, my whole life changed. Now I feel naked if I haven’t “drawn on my eyebrows” in the morning! It does wonders for me.

2. If you could pick any place/city to move to for a year, where would you want to go?

Savannah, GA! That adorable city has completely stolen my heart and though I’m not sure I could ever live so far away from my mom, I’d love to call that city home someday.

3. What is the one thing you like best about your home?

I like how bright and cheerful it is, thanks to the east side of the apartment being completely filled with windows. I open up the blinds nearly every day so I can come home to sunshine streaming inside the apartment.

4. What is your favorite pair of shoes?

I am not a shoe person at all, so I don’t think I have an answer for this one! Maybe my pair of TOMs? Those are one of the few kinds of shoes I can walk around in for miles and they won’t hurt my arches.

5. What is your favorite travel destination?

Anywhere a cruise ship will take me! Come on, is that all that surprising?

6. If you could have one do-over, what would it be?

I would have declared a communications major when I entered college and not education. I appreciate the experience being an education major gave me, but I do not appreciate that I’m now paying so much more in school loans because I was in college for so much longer. It’s disheartening.

7. What is something you are currently struggling with?

How to do everything I want to do, which I think is the struggle most of us have. In between my full-time job, I want to make time to blog twice a week, work on my fiction daily, exercise at least four times a week, read as much as I can, spend time with loved ones, keep up with the TV shows I watch, take adventures, pursue a side hustle… obviously, I can’t do all of that so I have to prioritize and manage my time. But I also don’t want to manage my time and guard it so fiercely that it takes the fun out of just living. It’s a balance.

8. Breakfast, lunch, or dinner?

Dinner, please! I am one of those weirdos who doesn’t really love breakfast. If I could skip breakfast altogether, I totally would.

9. Who is your celebrity girl crush?

Jennifer Lawrence. OMG – I love her. One of my boards on Pinterest is solely devoted to J.Law quotes.

10. Why did you start blogging?

I started my first blog way back in my freshman year of high school, on Xanga, and I did it because it was the “popular” thing to do. I continued blogging, jumping from Xanga to Diaryland to Blogger to WordPress back to Blogger and eventually back to WordPress, throughout the next decade or so. I started and stopped so many blogs! I just loved telling the story of my life, mundane as it seemingly was. I always loved to write and I loved having a space on the Internet to tell my story.

11. Tell me about one of your plans for this summer.

I don’t have any concrete summer plans as of yet. I am hoping to spend a lot of time at my pool, organize a fun girls’ outing for my mom’s birthday in July, and travel to Asheville with my roommate in August. Fingers crossed I can make it all happen! (Okay, that was three things. Oops.)

Your turn – tell me one thing you’d like to do over and one thing you’re doing this summer!

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My Blogging Process

I celebrated six years of blogging at Stephany Writes in September. That feels absolutely crazy to me, mainly because I used to have Blogging ADD where I would constantly start and stop blogs I created. Before committing to this blog, I don’t think I kept a blog running for more than a year before dropping it for a different one.

And yet… here I am. More than six years into this blog, and with no plans to stop anytime soon. I love this space because it’s where I feel most fully myself. When I started blogging here, I was nearly 22 and just beginning my journey through journalism school. There was a lot of complaining (oh, the complaining!) and a lot of sadness. Eventually, as I grew up and graduated college and found more solid footing on who I am and what I want, I found my blogging voice.

So, with six years of blogging under my belt (and really, more than that if you add in my other blogs), I thought it might be fun to talk about my blogging process – how do I come up my blog topics, maintain a consistent schedule, etc?

Let’s dive in!

How do I come up with content ideas?

As you’ll begin to see, my entire blogging process is pretty straightforward and no-frills. I don’t keep a detailed list in Evernote. Instead, I just use my Notes app, where I jot down post ideas as they come to me. Post ideas come to me at the most random times, too. Sometimes, I’ll have a thought as I listen to a podcast or read an article or commute to work or fall asleep at night.

The minute I have the idea, I immediately pull out my phone and jot the thought down. The last content idea that I jotted down was simply the quote: “What you think about me is none of my business.” Someday, I’d like to explore what that quote means to me, especially as someone who deals with self-esteem issues on a daily basis.

Sometimes, the idea is bigger than that, like this:

That one came to me last week as I was reading right before bed. It was just one of those out-of-the-blue moments and I wanted to make sure I wrote down this thought in its entirety, exactly how I feel about it so that I can come back to it at another point in time and dive into my thoughts on the subject in a personal essay.

So, that’s how I come up with post ideas! I like having a long list of random thoughts I’d like to blog about because I can pull from this list as I make my editorial calendar. Speaking of that…

Do I keep an editorial calendar?

Absolutely! I find keeping an editorial calendar is key to maintaining a consistent blogging schedule. Mainly, I try to be a month ahead in my blogging schedule. I use Google Calendar for this, which makes it easy to switch out blog ideas if something comes up and I need to change the post topic I had planned. Here’s what February looks like:

Now that I have and use a paper planner regularly, I only use Google Calendar for my post ideas. You may notice that I’ve only planned for two posts a week and that’s because I have made the decision to move from three posts a week to two, to create space for more novel-writing time. My goal is to write one personal essay, to be published on Tuesday, and then a low-key post for Fridays, like Five for Fridays or a Currently post.

Honestly, without this editorial calendar, I’m not sure if I would be able to maintain a consistent blogging schedule. This is what keeps me in line, motivated to write, and my topics fresh and interesting.

Being able to see what I have planned for the month means I always know what I am writing about the following week, and gives me the time to ruminate on what I want to say before writing the post. So, how do I write my posts? Well…

What does my content writing process look like?

This is the one area that can be all over the place, as I don’t have a set schedule for when I write. It’s just whenever I can make the time for it. But, how do I go from an idea in my Notes app to a published post on my blog? It’s not quite as streamlined as you may think!

For example, let’s discuss my post last week, For the Love of Writing. I wrote a long draft of the post on the Friday before I published it. I spent probably about an hour to an hour and a half free-writing. I didn’t stop to edit it for clarity or grammar or anything like that. I just wrote from the heart. Then, I stepped away from the post for a few days. I came back to it on Sunday night, read through what I wrote and added to it. I stepped away again. On Monday night, I came back to the post for my final round of revisions. I read through it, this time via a blog preview so I could read how it would look on my blog (sometimes, I can catch mistakes more easily that way than just by viewing it through WordPress), fixing mistakes and clarifying statements and deleting sentences that didn’t belong. I found a picture to accompany the post. And, after about an hour of editing, I scheduled it to publish the following day.

Sounds pretty crazy, right? I basically spent more than three hours perfecting just one post. Now, I don’t do that for every post (for example, my Currently in January post took me less than an hour to write), but for personal essays and more in-depth posts, they take me a long time because I want them to say exactly what I meant for them to say. And that takes a lot of writing and revising and editing and revising and writing and editing. Over and over and over again, until the post reads perfect (or nearly perfect) to my eyes.

This is also why I’ve decided to drop down to two posts a week. One, so I can focus on writing more personal essays and more meaningful posts. I want to focus more on quality and less on quantity this year. And two, because I need to create more space in my life for novel writing. With three posts a week, the majority of my weeknights were taken up with blogging. I had to change my schedule because writing my novel is my main priority goal for 2016, so I need to make sure I am really making it my number-one focus.

But that’s basically my blogging process! I do like to include a graphic with my posts, and that can add 10-15 minutes to my process between finding the right photo, uploading it to PicMonkey and adding text, and adding it to the post. I don’t spend time promoting my posts on social media (I’ll usually just tweet about the post once in the morning, and sometimes I don’t even do that), so basically, once the post is published, I’ve moved on to what’s next for me.

Keeping up with my blog can seem like a lot of work to some, but honestly, I only do it because I love it. It’s a hobby that earns me no money (it actually costs me money once I pay my yearly domain and hosting fees, ha), but I have gained so much from this space – new best friends, new outlooks on life, the push to go after my dreams, and mostly, a space to be myself, to be accepted, to be heard.

What does your blogging process look like?

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For the Love of Writing

I’ve spent the last decade convinced that I didn’t have what it takes to become a published novelist.

After growing up with this dream – my only dream – to be a famous author who wrote fun romances, I suddenly came to a full stop when I realized just how damn hard breaking into the publishing world is.

I stopped writing and essentially stopped dreaming, around the time I finished high school.

I declared an education major in college. And then that was a disaster so when it was time to change majors and my options were English or journalism, I chose journalism.

And now here I am. Nearly five years removed from college, my thirties looming in the distance, still holding on to that dream that just won’t die.

No matter how many times I shove it down, or box it up, or laugh it off, I still want nothing more than to be a published novelist.

More than marriage, more than babies, more than my goal weight, more than a corner office.

I want my name on the spine of the book. I want my words on crisp, opaque pages. I want my heart out in the world.

And after a decade of telling myself I don’t have what it takes, I decided to stop that negative talk.

I do have what it takes. I am good enough.

What is the point of a dream if I don’t chase after it?

There’s been no other path for me than published novelist. After college, I struggled with figuring out my career and what I wanted out of it because a traditional corporate job isn’t what fits me. Writing is what fits me.

Shattering glass ceilings and attending conferences and leading meetings and taking initiative… none of that excites me as much as writing does. Nothing fuels my fire as much as dreaming about publishing that novel.

Dreaming big is scary, and I think that’s part of the reason why I’ve been so hesitant to put in the work to write my novel. It’s why I let procrastination take a front-row seat and allow the negative thoughts their place in my heart.

I am terrified.

I am terrified that I don’t have what it takes, that I’ll never sell a novel, that I’ll put in hours and hours of work and nothing will come of it.

There’s a quote that says, “What would you do if you knew you couldn’t fail?” Elizabeth Gilbert and Brene Brown talked about that quote on one episode of her Magic Lessons podcast, and instead turned this quote on its head and suggested we start thinking about it differently. As in, “What is worth doing even if I fail?”

In essence, why is success a condition for why we should go after our dreams?

What makes me more of a success: not writing because I’m scared I’ll never get a publishing deal thus rendering all my hard work meaningless? Or writing and working hard and chasing after that dream and living life full-out, knowing that it is all too possible that I’ll never get the publishing deal I want?

Success and being recognized for my craft are not what make me a writer. What makes me a writer is putting in the work.

I want to put in the work. I want to spend hours and hours and hours working on this novel of mine. I want to do it because this is what I love and this is what I was born to do. I don’t want to hold myself back from something that brings me so much joy because I’m fearful it won’t be put out into the world. I don’t want to stop chasing my dream because there’s the potential for failure.

This year, this is my creative year. I am going to work on this novel. Tirelessly. Ceaselessly. With joy. With fulfillment. And probably with some pain and heartache along the way because isn’t that what creation is? Ripping out your heart and slapping it onto the page?

No longer am I going to let fear hold me back from something I’ve wanted for my entire life.

No longer am I going to accept defeat just because success might not be the end result.

My name being on the spine of the book is not the reason why I write.

I write because there’s nothing else I’d rather do.

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Five Years from Now

On Monday, I took a look back at a letter I wrote to myself five years ago, as I tried to visualize what I wanted my life to look like at 28. I loved looking back at that letter, and I thought there was nothing better I could do but to write another letter to myself – this time as a 28-year-old writing a letter to her 33-year-old self.

Here we go!

Dear 33-year-old Stephany,

You are 33! Somehow, being 33 doesn’t feel as unrealistic as being 28 did when you wrote your previous letter at age 23. In fact, it feels really good. I have a feeling your 30s are going to be grand.

Before I talk about what I am hoping for you, I want to give you a little knowledge of who I am right now. I turned 28 a few weeks ago, and I didn’t celebrate with any parties or big to-do’s. In fact, I spent the majority of my birthday alone before meeting my brother, nephew, and mom for dinner.

At 28, you work at a job you love. You write SEO website content for a living, which may not sound exciting to other people, but you love it. You also love the people you work with, and that makes your job even better.

At 28, you’re single and you don’t date a lot. And you’re okay with that because you don’t feel this pressing need to be in a serious relationship or even married. In fact, you enjoy your independence so much that being in a serious relationship is a little terrifying. But you also know those fears will dissipate once you meet the right person.

At 28, you just moved out on your own for the first time. You live in Tampa, which still doesn’t feel like home, but it’s getting there. You have a wonderful roommate who makes all those fears about living with another person (based on what it was like your freshman year of college) go away. She’s one of your best friends, and I hope she remains that for you.

At 28, you’re writing a novel and I hope it’s a novel you have published, five years from now. Being a published novelist is your biggest dream and you’re putting in the work to make it happen.

Not everything is wonderful, though. You’re overweight and don’t like looking at yourself in the mirror. Living a healthy lifestyle has been harder than you ever expected. You need to work on your money management skills (especially as you just had to have your mom help you pay for new tires for your car, sigh). You still struggle with anxiety and haven’t found a therapist you click with. But I guess the biggest low point of your life right now is that you lost your grandma two months ago. It’s been hard to accept her loss, and there’s such an emptiness in the world without her. It’s hard to believe that when you read this letter in December 2020, she’ll have been gone for five years.

So, what does 28-year-old me wish for the woman reading this letter now? So much, dear one. There is so much I hope and wish for you.

I hope you are living out your dream of being a published novelist. I hope I have used the past five years to buckle down, get my novel written and edited and sent out to agents. I hope you have many novels published with your name on the spine.

I hope you have been lucky in love because the past 28 years have not been so kind to you in that arena. I hope you have found someone you willingly gave up your solo adventures to be with. To me, this means you’ve found a way to let down your walls, let go of your fears, and be fully open to romance and love and passion.

I hope you have maintained your friendships and have cultivated new ones. I hope you still attend book club and have found a community through your church and have deep, fun relationships with women who care about you. There’s nothing more precious than girlfriends. I hope you still understand that.

I hope you live somewhere you love. Maybe that’s a house you own or an apartment you call your own. At 28, home ownership isn’t even on your radar because it feels like too much work. But plans change, right? I don’t know if you still live in Tampa, but I’d venture to say no. I wonder if you’ve moved back to St. Pete after a year or two in Tampa or maybe you’ve taken the plunge and moved somewhere entirely different (living in Savannah has always been a dream).

I hope you’ve taken control of your anxiety and found a therapist you connect with. I hope you’ve gotten a handle on your health, have lost the weight, and feel good about your appearance. I hope you’ve traveled, seen the U.S. cities you’ve wanted to see, and took that trip to Italy that you wanted to take. I hope you’ve been smart with your money, are completely out of debt, and have a healthy savings account that makes you feel secure should an emergency arise.

Above all, dear self, I hope you are abundantly happy with your life. More than achieving goals, more than being who I think you should be, happiness is my ultimate wish for you. I want you to love your life and the people in it. I want you to wake up enthused to start your days and know how very lucky you are to live the life you do.

Love,

Your former 28-year-old self

What do you hope for your life in 5 years?