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Why I Couldn’t Complete a Minimalism Challenge

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Through my friend Lisa, I found out about this minimalism game, in which you spend a month decluttering your home. On the first day of the month, you get rid of one thing. On the second day, two things. Third day, three things. And so on until the end of the month.

Lisa decided to complete this game in February, and I wanted to play along with her. While I didn’t think I had 435 items to purge, the experiment intrigued me enough to want to play along.

I should say that I have been on a mission of living with less for a few years now. I get it: minimalism is the “cool thing” to do now (at least in Internet circles), but I’ve never been someone who likes clutter or finds enjoyment in owning things. Some people do, and honestly, that’s fine. If organized chaos is your jam, then that’s awesome. You do you.

For me, clutter makes me anxious and I believe everything needs to have a place. If something does not have a place, then it makes me question why I’m owning it.

Truthfully, we keep a lot of stuff we don’t need because we think we “should” own it. One of the easiest examples of this is with books. I think it’s safe to say that I am a major bookworm, but one thing you won’t find in my home is a bookshelf. That’s right – I am a bookworm that doesn’t own very many books. In fact, I can fit my entire book collection on my nightstand. And I hesitate to call this a collection because one book is for a blog review, another for Postal Book Club, and the two Harry Potter tomes were loaned to me from a friend. (So, these books won’t be in my home for very long.)

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I should own books, right? I love to read! What more bookworm-y thing is there than bookshelves stuffed with books? And yet… I don’t feel as if I need to own books. There are a few reasons why. I rarely buy books, preferring to frequent the library or buy digital when necessary. I rarely reread and don’t see much of a point of holding onto a book that will just grow dusty on a shelf. And when I did own a bookshelf stuffed with books, it felt more like something I needed to keep because I was a reader and readers have bookshelves.

But when I packed up my books – all of them – and took them to my local library, I felt free. I felt as if I had lifted this heavy weight from my shoulders. This weight that said I should own something because of XYZ reason.

From then on, I really began to examine the stuff I kept. Dozens and dozens of shoes? Why? I’m not much of a shoe person, so out they went and now, I have seven pairs I rotate around. Jewelry? I don’t even like to wear jewelry and haven’t worn any of my necklaces in months. See ya. Purses? Clothes? Beauty products? Odds and ends? Unless I had a reason to keep them, good riddance.

When I moved back in September, I purged many of my belongings. In the end, my entire life fit into just a few boxes. And then, a month into living in Tampa, I did another purge because my closet felt overwhelming. I filled up an entire garbage bag of stuff that I thought I “needed.”

It’s amazing how much we think we need, but how much we really don’t.

So, this February purge. I figured I still had stuff I needed to let go of. And I found stuff. Little things. Beauty products that were almost used up or I no longer needed, shirts that had seen the wash a few too many times and were misshapen, pens, bobby pins, expired medicine, dog clothing I’d never put on Dutch, headbands, out-of-shape elastics, and on and on.

Fifty-five things I found.

Until Friday, February 12.

I looked around my bathroom, opening cabinets and pulling out drawers. Nothing. I use all of this.

I looked around my bedroom, peering inside my nightstand. Nothing. I use all of this.

I looked inside my walk-in closet, taking down boxes, inspecting my shoe bin, looking through my purses. Nothing. I use all of this.

I looked in the kitchen, opening cabinets and doors. Nothing. I use all of this.

It came to a point where I looked around my home and I realized I am living with less.

I am living with exactly what I need.

I am not keeping things around because I think I should keep them.

I am keeping things around because I use them or because they hold value to me, like my great-grandma’s Bible.

What this minimalism challenge taught me was that I am living my minimalist life. It’s not something I’m striving for, but something I’m doing. Sure, as the challenge shows, I had some things to get rid of. But little things. I’m not hoarding books or shoes or clothing or knick-knacks or things I think I need to keep but don’t actually need.

It’s a pretty spectacular feeling, knowing you’re living your minimalist life.

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Quarterly Review | 4th Quarter 2015

At the end of every quarter, I like to take the time to do a quarterly review. I started this last year and I just really like taking the time to look back on the previous three months and outline the highlights, the low lights, the goals I wanted to achieve, etc. And then I like to take the time to visualize what I’d like to achieve in the upcoming quarter. And, while I will be setting some intentions for Quarter 1 of 2016 in this post, I’ll be detailing my goal-setting process in greater detail on Wednesday, so stay tuned for that!

Anyway, let’s dive into my review of Quarter 4 of 2015!

What went well in Q4?

Dutch ran in his fourth Running of the Wieners race, and placed second in his heat. (By default – the other three dogs didn’t even cross the finish line, ha!)
I enjoyed Halloween at work. Roomie and I dressed up in a punny couple costume – she was a “holy cow” and I was an “oh deer.” It was a super easy costume and really fun to get into the spirit with everyone at work.
I visited The Wizarding World of Harry Potter for the first time! I had a blast and I am so thankful to my roommate for taking me and letting me fully nerd out.
I won NaNoWriMo 2015! I spent a lot of time writing in this quarter of the year and it solidified just how much I want to finish my novel and get it published.
I rang in the New Year in a fantastic way – surrounded by friends at a bar downtown. Typically, New Year’s is a boring night for me where I stay in and am usually asleep before midnight. Which is fine, but it can also be lonely. I’m really glad my roommate pushed me to go out with her and her boyfriend because it reminded me that being social is fun and I have to stop hiding behind my introversion.

What was challenging about Q4?

I lost my grandma. By far, this is the toughest thing I have ever had to go through in my life. Knowing that I won’t ever be able to talk to her, hug her, see her again is this crushing reality that I can’t really face. It feels too raw, too painful. I’ve never had to grieve a loss like this, so I don’t know the “right” way to do it, but I guess the best way to work through the pain is to try to live like she did – someone who was selfless, giving, compassionate, and truly a beautiful soul.
Another challenging part of this quarter was dealing with Dutch’s illness in late October. It was the first time I was dealing with him all on my own, and it was the first time I ever stayed up all night with a sick pup. I think I got maybe three hours of sleep the night he got sick. If that. Thankfully, the vet diagnosed him with a simple bacterial infection and with some antibiotics, he was back to his normal self within a few days.

What did I want to accomplish in Q4?

I wanted to get a tattoo, which I did not accomplish.
I wanted to participate in The Holiday Council 2015, which I did. (And loved, as always.)
I wanted to bake my first-ever pie for Thanksgiving, which I did not do.
I wanted to win NaNoWriMo 2015, which I did!
I wanted to exercise consistently 3-4 times per week and drink 32 ounces of water per day, which I did neither of, eek.

What would make the first quarter of 2016 a successful quarter for me?

Creating healthier habits – My two main goals for this quarter are to exercise three times per week and to drink 16 oz of water a day (nope, not nearly what I should be drinking, but an easy goal to strive for).
Being more mindful – I feel like I can get caught up in the to-do’s of life that I don’t take time to appreciate the present moment. I want to spend time each night writing 2-3 sentences about my day and I also want to really be deliberate with how I am spending my time, my energy, and my money.
Saying yes – You know how most people have trouble saying no and turning down plans? I have the opposite problem – I have no problem saying no, I have a problem with saying yes. I like to hide behind my introversion and my HSP nature (social environments can be very uncomfortable for me). I want to stop that. I want to say yes more often – not to a point of overwhelming me (I won’t schedule more than one event during the work week, two during the weekend) – but just to show myself that being social is fun and I do enjoy myself.

What were some of the highlights of the last quarter of 2015 for you?

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The Tampa Bay Project #8: Participate in a Murder Mystery Show

Full disclosure before I begin this post: In exchange for an honest review, The Murder Mystery Company provided me with two tickets to a show. I was not otherwise monetarily compensated, and all words and opinions are strictly my own.

One of my lifelong goals has been to participate in a murder mystery show. Growing up, my favorite board game was Clue and it was the one game that would make my eyes light up if my family agreed to play it during a family game night. So murder mystery theater? Sign me up.

I was thrilled when I was given two free tickets to a recent show taking place at Tampa Pitcher Show, which is a fun theater that has a full dinner and bar menu and in-theater dining service. I’ve only been to this theater once and it was a few years ago, but I remember loving this little eclectic place. I was excited to see how the theater would transform for an event like a murder mystery show.

I found the entire evening to be very fun, but completely different from what I was expecting. I think I expected more of a performance and working together with my tablemates to go through the clues and figure out who was the murderer, but it wasn’t anything like that. Instead, it was an event that required a ton of audience participation. I was up and out of my seat for most of the night, mingling with the other guests and trying to find out clues.

With this show, they had four actors playing parts and then they picked out 10 or so people from the audience to be in the show as well. (Luckily, I wasn’t chosen, which I am eternally grateful for.) One of my tablemates was chosen, much to his girlfriend’s delight, as he is usually shy and reserved so this was completely out of his comfort zone.

The show was a lot less performance and a lot more audience participation. It involved going up to the other actors to ask pointed, leading questions in the hopes of figuring out the “whodunnit.” In the beginning, my table wasn’t very good at this because we were very confused about what to do and what questions to ask. We fumbled over our answers to other people and I honestly had no idea what was going on! But as the show went on, we gathered our bearings and began to piece together what had happened and how everything fit together.

We pieced it together so well that we won! Our table was honored as the “Detectives of the Night” for having the “most correct answer.” As in, we not only had to name the “whodunnit” but also write a very compelling argument as to why this person had motive and how she committed the murders (there were two!). I was very proud of our team because I felt like we really had to work hard for that distinction! Lots of running around, asking questions, and keeping up with all the different characters.

So, that’s the event, but I cannot consider this a full review without naming the highs and lows, so anyone considering this event as a date night or girl’s night out can do so with an informed opinion.

So, here’s what’s good about The Murder Mystery Company:

The actors – The show was wonderfully campy and exactly what you’d want out of a performance such as this. They really put their whole hearts into the show.
The mystery – I found the actual mystery that we had to solve to be pretty interesting and well-developed. While it was pretty obvious to my table who the murderer was, it wasn’t a conclusive decision. That made it fun because we were on pins and needles waiting to find out the “whodunnit!”
The audience – We had a really fun audience with people who truly got into their roles, which I thought was pretty awesome for those who had the roles sprung on them right before the show got started.
The fun – Oh, goodness, I laughed my way through the entire night! It was just such a fun show that entertained me from beginning to end.

But you can’t have the good without the bad, so here are some of my negatives:

The food was subpar – This is probably not the fault of the company itself, but rather the theater. I just wasn’t very impressed with my meal! I was expecting a good dinner, but instead, I left the event a little hungry.
There wasn’t a clear beginning – I found the first 15 minutes of the show to be confusing because there wasn’t a clear beginning. Instead, five or six people descended upon our table and began asking us questions that we didn’t know the answer to. I would have preferred to know that the show was starting with an introduction.
I’m not sure about the price tag – General admission to the show is $60 per person, which is a little pricey for a date night, as this doesn’t include drinks at the show (anything other than water is going to cost you). Thankfully, this company runs Groupon deals all the time, in which you can get tickets for more than half-price.

The Murder Mystery Company in Tampa hosts both public and private events, so whether you want a fancy date night out that includes lots of laughs or want to organize a small event for a group of friends, they can help you! And right now, for a limited time, you can get 50% off early access tickets when you use the promo code “mysterytampa” at checkout.

Have you ever gone to a murder mystery show?

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Change, Triggers, and Finding My Way

I’ve made no secret of the fact that I have struggled with my recent move. I knew it would be a tough transition for me, but I just didn’t know how tough it would be. I felt as if I prepared myself as much as I could; from other moves (and especially from my move to college when I was 18), I knew I would struggle. But you can’t know how much you will struggle, how hard it will be, how intense the feelings will feel until you are in it. Until you are living through the anxiety and the fear.

This change was hard. It was so hard.

And when you’re 27 years old and have just moved out on your own for the first time, and crying because you miss your mom and you miss your old environment and everything feels so new and different and strange?

It’s hard to give yourself grace.

It’s hard to not feel as if you’ve failed at life somehow.

It didn’t help that my roommate was doing juuuuust fine with the move. She was bubbly and happy and so excited to live with a roommate after a year of living on her own. She’s one of those people who thrives wherever they are. College? Not a problem. New city where she knows nobody? No biggie, she easily finds her social groove. She’s four years younger than me, and the fact that she handles change wayyyyy better than I ever will is a little demoralizing.

During the first few days after the move, it was hard not to spiral down into an existential crisis. I got lost in the “How Will I…” game. How will I ever be able to live on my own if living with a roommate – someone I dearly love! – is such a hard change? How will I ever be able to handle moving in with a partner, if the time ever comes for that? From there, it morphed into worrying about something happening to Dutch or my mom, my lifelines during this time. It’s a scary slippery slope when the mind turns on you like that. I was reminded of my first few weeks of living on campus in college and how much I struggled with the transition. I thought, with this move, I would handle the change better because I was older and wiser and good god, 27 years old, time to stop living with mommy! And yet… here I was… nearly 10 years later and still struggling.

Oh, the mind. It’s a scary place to be when you’re in the trenches.

What was most helpful for me during this time was talking it out and indulging in self-care habits.

I talked it out with friends, I called my mom daily just to talk, and I even let my roommate in on my struggles. I was nervous to do so because I thought she might think I was lame for struggling. But she offered me grace when I couldn’t give myself it. She offered me peace when my mind was in chaos. And she offered me the light bulb moment I needed when she told me that change is my trigger. For her, change isn’t a trigger, but for me, it is.

It was as if I could finally allow myself the grace and compassion I needed. It’s a trigger. It’s not a personality flaw. It’s not me being a baby. It’s just my trigger. For me, a big change such as this causes huge issues with my anxiety. It causes something that I can generally control on a day-to-day basis to rear its ugly head and overwhelm me with feelings. I could finally say to myself, “This is your anxiety talking. You will be okay. You will make it through. You just have to sit here for a while and be sad and cry a bunch and wait for the tide to pass.”

This too shall pass. It’s cliche, but I want that tattooed on my body because it’s so hard to remember that when you’re in the gauntlet of emotion and hardship. This too shall pass.

You will get through it. Life will be different – not bad different, not good different, just different. You will survive. You will thrive. This too shall pass.

Also, self-care. I’m a big proponent of self-care because I’ve seen the magic it has worked in my own life. Without self-care habits, I’m not sure I would understand myself as well as I do. My self-care habits after the move included daily bubble baths, reading light and fluffy romance novels, indulging in all the TV I needed, and allowing myself junk food. I’ll admit, some of these habits aren’t the most healthy, but it’s what kept me sane during the few weeks of turmoil. I needed them to find my way out of the gauntlet. Self-care habits, get you some.

I wish I was more accepting of change, but I’m not. As a highly sensitive person, I place a high value on comfortable environments. And with such a huge shake-up to my living situation, it overwhelmed my senses and opened me up to anxiety and panic attacks. But it’s been seven weeks since the move, and home is starting to feel like home. I’m happy here. I feel joy when I step inside my apartment. I’m comfortable with this little life I’m building for myself in Tampa.

I know more change is on the horizon. It’s already happened with losing one of the most important people in my life. I’ll lose more important people. I’ll switch jobs (hopefully not anytime soon, though). I’ll maybe even find a partner to build a home with. It’s all going to be hard. As long as I acknowledge that it’s okay that it’s difficult for me and that I allow myself the grace to adjust to the change, I think I’ll be just fine.

How do you feel about change?

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Reviewing the Third Quarter of the Year

Hello, friends! I hope everyone had a splendid weekend; mine was filled with fall festivities. I carved a pumpkin, watched The Nightmare Before Christmas for the first time ever (!), and watched football. We’ve had nice weather here in Florida lately, but I’m still wearing shorts and flip-flops, so anytime the weather wants to dip 10-15 degrees cooler, I am A-OK with that.

Today, I wanted to take the time to review the third quarter of 2015. I’ve done it for the past two quarters and I think it’s something I definitely want to continue. I love to reflect on my life, to discuss the high points and low points, and to set goals, so a personal quarterly review is right up my alley.

What went well in Q3?

My mom married Robert in a simple ceremony by the water in Downtown St. Petersburg.
I had a fun girl’s night out with two friends where we went to a local comedy club to see Joe Machi do his stand-up routine.
I took a break from blogging and social media for a whole month, which completely refreshed me.
I moved to a beautiful new apartment in Tampa with my best friend. Our apartment is so lovely and brings me so much joy.
My nephew turned seven and we celebrated with a fun-filled afternoon at an arcade center.
Dutch stayed healthy for an entire quarter (worth noting because in Q1, he pinched a nerve in his back and in Q2, he dealt with a UTI for a month). Very grateful for a healthy pup!
I started writing fiction again and meeting up with a writing friend once a week to spend a few hours on our novels.

What was challenging about Q3?

I experienced intense, nearly debilitating anxiety in relation to my move. Big change like a move is a trigger for my anxiety, so I was in the trenches in the few weeks.
I made zero progress on my healthy living goals. I haven’t been exercising, barely drinking water, and I’m eating way too many sweets. It’s frustrating.
I wanted to be better at managing my money, but I’m still spending more than I should and saving very little.

If I could do Q3 over again, what would I do better?

I would make time for exercise and not let little excuses get in the way of my health.
I would have been kinder to myself when I was in the transitional period, and not have been such a bully about having a tough time with the move.
I would have reached out to friends more and made more social plans.

What did I want to accomplish in Q3?

I wanted to move to South Tampa, which I did.
I wanted to start therapy, which I did not.
I wanted to lose 15 lbs, which I did not. (I also didn’t gain any weight, so silver lining? Meh.)
I wanted to take a break from social media and blogging, which I did.
I wanted to write more fiction, which I did.

What do I want to accomplish in Q4?

I want to get a tattoo (there are murmurings about the ladies in my family to get tattoos commemorating my grandma).
I want to participate in The Holiday Council 2015 and invest the time in the homework.
I want to bake my first-ever pie to bring to Thanksgiving dinner.
I want to win NaNoWriMo 2015.
I want to consistently exercise 3-4 times a week and consistently drink 32 oz of water per day.

What would make Q4 a successful quarter for me?

Losing weight – my goal would be to lose 7 lbs to get me under a certain number that has been plaguing me for this whole year.
Spending money wisely during Christmas – my family tends to go all out, so I want this Christmas to be a frugal one with an emphasis placed on time together rather than tons of presents.
Investing the time in my writing – I don’t want to be lazy about NaNoWriMo, but to be truly dedicated to completing this challenge.

What’s one thing – big or small! – you accomplished in Q3? What would you like to accomplish in Q4?