1) Psoriatic arthritis – the physical side
I’ve been on prednisone for three days now, and I am amazed at how good I feel. I’m not fully pain-free. My sausage finger is still a little stiff, but the swelling has gone down and I can grip things again! (It’s painful to grip things, but not impossible like it was before.) And my left shoulder hasn’t quite bounced back, although it gets a little less stiff and achy every day. But I can deal with that. Being in chronic pain for five months, I had forgotten what it’s like to do the simplest tasks without pain. Bending down to put on my shoes. Getting out of bed in the morning. Petting my cats. Drying myself off after a shower. Picking up a plate from a cabinet. Standing up. Walking up and down stairs. Putting on a pair of pants. Tying my shoes. All of this was unbearably difficult for so many months. I know there is a long journey ahead of me as I work with my rheumatologist on the right medication, but right now, I am just soaking in these moments where I feel good and like a woman in her late thirties again.
2) Psoriatic arthritis – the emotional side
I don’t think I’ve really come to terms with the emotional side of this diagnosis and what it means to have a chronic autoimmune condition. Last summer, when my index fingers were swollen and hard to use, I was terrified I had rheumatoid arthritis. I didn’t even talk to Lisa about this because I didn’t want to speak any truth to it. At this point, I’m guessing I didn’t have trigger finger but rather a symptom of psoriatic arthritis (and since the pain was cleared up with steroid shots, that’s even more proof). Fast forward to January and I am crossing all of my fingers and toes that I would be diagnosed with psoriatic arthritis. It’s not that I wanted an autoimmune condition; I wanted answers. I wanted to stop feeling so terrible all the time. Nothing about my pain felt normal, especially for someone who is 38 and able-bodied. And while I will likely have to deal with the emotional side of this diagnosis at some point, right now, I am just relieved to have a reason behind my pain. It’s not all in my head. It’s a real condition, and there is treatment for it.
3) Instagram break
On Sunday night, after doomscrolling through my feed right before bed, I decided it was time to delete Instagram from my phone. I needed a break from the news and the opinions of what’s happening and the incredibly vile responses from the leaders of our country. Things feel so bleak and so hopeless right now. A baby almost died because of ICE! How does anyone justify that? How does the pro-life party justify anything that’s happening right now? It makes me sick to my stomach on a daily basis. I miss my cute cat videos and silly memes, but it’s good to be off Instagram right now. I’m going to take February off Instagram and then reevaluate if I want to return.
4) A moment of delight
Who wants a dose of delight? Last night, my mom and I met at a restaurant near her house for dinner and afterwards, we hopped in my car to drive over to Bath & Body Works (which is in the same shopping center) to poke around. Then, we walked over to the grocery store for a few items before hopping back into my car. And then I pulled right out of the shopping center and was halfway to her house when I started laughing hysterically. “Oh my god, I have to drive you back to your car!” Folks, I was ready to take my mom straight home, forgetting that she had driven to dinner herself. After the grocery store, I was supposed to drop her off at her car, not at her house. She started laughing, too, and said, “I was thinking, ‘Oh, I’m going to have to go in [to her house] through the front door but I don’t remember leaving through the front door!'” (She has a garage, so she would have left through the garage tonight!) Sigh. At least it was literally a 1-minute difference in time since she lives so close to this shopping center. And it made us laugh so much!
5) Weekend plans
You guys, it’s going to get cold this weekend! There’s even a slim chance that we could get snow flurries! That would be wild. The high on Sunday is 46 degrees, eeks.
Other than preparing for our Florida snow day, I don’t have too much going on this weekend. Today, I’m planning on tackling some errands and getting some chores done. (How exciting.) Tomorrow, I have a writing date with Mikaela and then a reading date with another friend. And Sunday, I will stay cozy indoors! I realize that a high of 46 for you heartier winter folk means going outside and enjoying the “warmth,” but I am not hearty when it comes to cold temperatures like these!
Tell me a moment of delight from your week!


















